31 May 2008

Balance

Friday night. I should be someplace else but I didn't feel like flying away this weekend. Or did I? I was torn till the very last minute, booking a ticket and then thinking things over. I'm not gonna get smashed this weekend. I'm not gonna be half-dead on Monday morning. I want to chill. On the other hand, I'm not gonna see friends. Any friends, for that matter.

Plans, plans.

Than a phone rings and it really doesn't matter that I missed the plane. Temptation is everywhere. I just need to think things over.

25 May 2008

Weekend

As much as I'm trying to live so-called decent life, sometimes it just doesn't work out. Friday evening, I'm reading work materials at home, making sure I'm getting paid for a reason. I'm even taking notes so I'll have a clue what to comment in the meeting next week.

Saturday's totally different. I'm out of town kicking it on some balcony, sun is chopping me to pieces. It's alright, I don't mind. Having one after another, there's seemingly unlimited supply. Puffing on, puffing my life away. There's nothing to think about when a credit card and a stylishly rolled one dollar banknote appear on a table. Out of nowhere, as usually.

Flow of words is never-ending, hours are gone in a blink. Changing places, changing cities, talking too much, remembering nothing. How easy.

It's too late at night, I'm sitting at home, browsing Internet chat rooms, yakking with other owls, mechanically chewing a gum until it's... 11 am. At twelve I'm having a squash game on.

If this is my very last post, don't worry. It was fun. No regrets.

17 May 2008

Dreaming

She was so little. And so cute. Spoke a language I could not understand a single word of. Her deep black eyes made me wonder. What if. What if I wanted to spend three hours on a plane as often as possible. And learn a foreign language. Could I do that? Was it just a dream?

I drew her a map and she seemed to be interested. We talked and had a laugh. She told me a bit about the country, about the city and about the ocean. Plus her favourite football team. And I wondered.

We swapped business cards. Maybe I'll be buying a ticket soon.

Or not. One tends to be forgetting quickly and easily, exhausted by everyday existence, by so-called responsibilities and unavoidable commitments. Yet it's still great to dream.